| Xanga!!!!!~~
i'm back!! i guess -.-
i guess i stopped this thing because i shared so many of my emotions/feelings. if i really wanted help, i should have asked someone. not just venting on xanga. i was immature cuz i was asking for attention by writing posts about being hopeless just so people can say "aww, i'm so sorry". you know right??
i see it so much. "i'm such a bad person now.. do people really love me.. i need to grow more.. why can't i be happy.."
sooo depressing huh!? T T
attention dwelling.. >.<
but here is my real post: i wanna go back to Korea T T.. because Knoxville is so not cool! haha ^^ |
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| omg... i just heard about some news... i think while i was in korea i was hanging out with the high class mobsters. like REAL mobsters/gangsters. and the top guy (who is my friend's dad) actually helped me a whole lot in korea. like omg... omg... OMG!!!!!!! no joke! omg!!!! |
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| xanga is seriously non-existent! i've listened to the crowd and joined myspace just cuz no one is on xanga anymore! i like xanga still cuz i talk about what has been going on and i never do blogs on myspace just boring/very very random messages haha!
anyhoos, i'm gonna start college as you know. i dunno if i'm more anxious or happy or not happy lol. after seeing NYC, knoxville seems like it just doesn't fit me even though the people there are soooo friendly. i wish i took a year off to travel or something... maybe become an NBA basketball player or a very good-looking sweaty korean international soccer star... yeah, the good ole days.
everyday, i seem to be doing the same unproductive things. everyday: wake up, go on my laptop, watch another episode of "friends", dream about NYC like in "friends", eat/drink creatine, gag cuz its so gross, go to the Y, look at women who work out more than their husbands, eat real food, go back on the laptop, nap/daydream, read a book/magazine, call someone, shower, laptop, get ready to rendevous/stay @ home/rendevous, laptop, get bored, call someone/laptop, sleep!
if you wanna know what i do on my laptop that takes like 9/10ths of my day is(but not limited to): myspace, xanga somtimes, cyworld, nfl.com, my350z.com, hotmail, Abercromie, armani X, eluxury.com, espn, and actually i read a TON of relationship things. i'm so fascinated by relationships...?!?! i even do women's surveys such as what i want from a guy... how to break the ice by looking sexy for guys... i forgot but its crazy. and actually i made an account for match.com(an online dating service). i'm not serious but i wanted to look up their personalities/profiles just to see if i'd ever find anyone 50 miles from the 37067 zip code. look at me! summer with no job or studying or being productive does this to a very manly guy named blake! oh oh, btw, can someone teach me to speak non-cute korean. because everyone laughs and giggles at my korean saying its too cute. i lost so many man-points this summer... |
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| GONE TO NYC! for 5 days! bye
we got a new car! 2006 mercedes benz ml350.... very very nice. and the best part.. i get to keep my car!! yahoooooo!~ |
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| i'm in korea! it's fun!
bye
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korean-american girls are much hotter than korean-korean girls. cept for joo-yeon of course! what happened. i always told my white friends korean girls are fine. anyways, in korea they consider me as "jacked" like muscled lol funny huh! |
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